What I Felt When Daisy Said She Loved Tom...

It was so hot that day and all of us were sitting in that tiny hotel room with nothing to help against the heat. Along with the heat, Tom was fired up and asking me questions about Daisy. I felt I should break the news to him that Daisy never loved him. He got so mad and asked Daisy if this was true. Daisy was upset and crying, but when she answered it shocked me and hurt me so bad. She said it was impossible for her to say that she had never loved Tom and that she loved the both of us! I couldn't believe it. I felt so betrayed and upset I could barely think straight. How could she love Tom? He was a horrible person and someone not fit to even be in the presence of Tom. I wanted to fight him, but all of a sudden Daisy ran out of the room so I chased after her. I caught up to her and we talked. I told her how hurt I was and how angry I was that I even let this happen. Some other heinous man who didn't even deserve her selfishly loved Daisy. I knew if we left this town and got away from Tom we could be great together.

What I Was Thinking When I Stayed After The Accident...

I will remember that day of the accident for as long as I live. That accident was terrible was so unexpected that Daisy didn't have time to swerve and I'm not sure she really wanted to. She was so emotional and upset from that days conversation. When she hit Myrtle she was a mess. I told her to keep driving and that'd we'd switch seats. We did and I raced her back to her house. I told Daisy that I was going to wait outside her house until I know everything is okay. I waited outside and when Nick came I walked to him telling him what I happened. I knew he wouldn't say anything to anybody about how it was Daisy driving. It was raining so bad, but I couldn't leave that spot under her window. I just kept thinking of how upset she must be right now and I wished I could have been by her side holding her and telling her I'd protect her. If Tom had even laid a hand on Daisy I would have killed him right there. She came to her window staring out and I hope she saw me standing there. Maybe it would make her feel safer knowing I was there.

Why I Changed My Name...

Jay Gatsby has been the name I've been going by for the past years. I haven't always went by the name Jay Gatsby though. My given name from my father was James Gatz. I just didn't think it was becoming. Jay Gatsby made me seem richer and more official. If I wanted Daisy to love me I had to be the one she envisioned. I had to be rich and powerful. Even though changing my name seemed small, it changed my whole image. I became Jay Gatsby a top leader in the army, Jay Gatsby one of the richest men on West Egg, Jay Gatsby the women a girl like Daisy could fall in love with. When I was James Gatz, I could never be the man I practiced when I wrote those things in my journal. I practiced those things so I could then be Jay Gatsby. As a bootlegger, I also needed a new identity. People already knew the old James Gatsby and I needed someone new that no one has never heard of and Jay Gatsby was the perfect name.

Why I Invited Daisy for Tea...

I made Nick invite Daisy over for tea cause I was tired of waiting. I was tired of watching that green light. I was tired of living without her and I didn't care about Tom getting in the way anymore. I just wanted her to see myself and see how successful I am now and see what she missed out on. Once she saw me I thought she would come back to me at once. I didn't want to let Tom get in the way anymore. I figured once she came to tea and saw me all her feelings and thoughts would rush back to her and everything would be normal again with no complications, but I was very wrong. I wanted Daisy to realize Tom was all wrong for her and I could offer her so much more.

What I was feeling when I was looking at the green light...

I felt so many emotions when I looked at that bright, blinking green light. I felt desperate most of all though. I knew each time that light blinked I had less and less time to find Daisy or Daisy to find me. Each time the light blinked I felt lonely. I missed Daisy so much and I just wanted to stop staring at that green light instead at her beautiful face. I also felt angry. I felt especially angry at Tom because he had taken my beloved Daisy away from me. I had to fight him to win back her heart which I knew I would be able to do if she would just come to one of my meaningless parties.

What I Was Thinking While At My Parties...

I walked around aimlessly at everyone of the parties looking in everyone's faces for Daisy. I thought for sure by now she would have heard of at least one of them and would have casually shown up, but to my despair she hadn't. I thought of how wonderful it would be if she showed up and I would run to her sweeping her off her feet. I had crazy thoughts of what would happen if she showed up and how we would just walk off to the pool side by ourselves and talk for hours. Eventually I would give up looking and I would hide out in my room. Then I would think in my room of all the people I might know that knew Daisy, but little came to mind. For sure she had to hear from somebody though, there were so many people at my parties!